They Made Me Awesome

Oh man, it’s been a really long time since my last post and for that I apologize. The past few months have been filled with awesomeness that I hope to share with everyone, but before I get to those posts there is THIS post I’ve been meaning to write.

There are two people in my life that mean the absolute world to me. I’ve been lucky enough to have them both supporting me and by my side my entire life. I am grateful they remind me how much they love me, care about my health, safety and well-being. Without them I would have no idea who I am. It pains me to think about a world without either one of them and I just cringe at that slight thought.

I’m distant from both of them and sometimes am very disconnected to each one and I forget to tell them how much they mean to me. I wouldn’t be where I am today without their unconditional love and support.

I made a list of the things these two amazing people need to read:

For the past five years I have lived in another state and only get to see you two a few times a year. I simply have been focusing on myself and striving for something you two would be most proud of. I know it may appear like I don’t think about you both, but in all honesty there isn’t a single day that goes by where I’m not thinking of you. You two are the most important people in my life.

Another thing I don’t say nearly enough is “Thank You”. I’m truly grateful for all you have provided for me and my brothers. You gave us everything and treated us all as equals. From food, shelter, toys, cars, college and Christmas mornings you gave us the world. You put your children before yourselves through the good times and the bad. I know you love us more than we will ever know.

I love you.

You two raised four very different boys. I have no idea how the heck you did that. You two are better than the Dynamic Duo and they could learn a thing or two from you both. You both were a team with a mission to provide the best life for your boys. Even through the worst of times you two stuck together to ensure we were happy and again I can’t thank you enough for making so many sacrifices for us. I need you to know that I appreciate everything you gave up for me.

Because of your love, compassion, kindness, and overall awesomeness I am a better human being. You molded me into the person I am today. How to love, fight, deal with pain and believe that I can do anything I set my mind to.

I’m here in Rhode Island and have been for more than five years. You two are in New Jersey and Florida and being far away from you both hurts me everyday. I chose to live here because I love the feeling that I have made it on my own for so long. You’ve provided me with all my resources to make it and it feels incredible to say I’m an active member of society. I now have a full-time job, my own car that is registered to me, I pay my own bills and take care of myself. That’s because you taught me it’s OK to go out into the world and fight for what you want. Just know me being so far from you both doesn’t mean I don’t miss you. I miss you everyday.

I know life is not forever and I know one day I will wake up and you both will be gone. Writing that sentence scared me. I can’t imagine not being able to pick up the phone and checking in with you both. Even after that day comes you’ll always be in my heart.

Mom and Dad I love you both very much.

See you when I see you.

Love always and forever,